What About Sarah?

What about Sarah? You've all seen the movie "What About Bob?"...right?! Well if you haven't you are missing out on a life experience. Bob wakes up every morning rubs his face and says: "I feel wonderful, I feel great, I feel wonderful, I feel great!". He then takes baby steps out of bed, and baby steps out the door, and baby steps to wherever he goes. This past week has been a "What about Sarah?" week. It has taken a ton of effort just to get to class everyday. And I've been trying to convince myself that I feel wonderful and that I feel great. These past two weeks have been so crazy, and stressful, but it has gone so fast. I wonder where the time went?

This week is Mental Health Awareness week, and I wasn't going to post this post, but after realizing that what week it is I thought this would be appropriate. I've really struggled with stress, and I didn't think I would blog about this, but I think it's important for people to understand what it feels like when you struggle with anxiety. It's a hard feeling to describe. An overwhelming feeling of stress. At night as I lay awake thinking about what I need to accomplish I can feel this tingle work it's way up my legs, and I wouldn't call it painful, but it's certainly uncomfortable. During the day when I appear completely normal I feel like my heart is beating 20x faster than it should be, and I often have a headache. It's definitely something I have had to deal with. When I came to confront this I saw myself as broken. I couldn't understand why I couldn't deal with it, and I was worried that's how other would view me- as broken. I've had to regain the knowledge that I am a daughter of a Heavenly Father who loves me in order to better understand myself. This week I hope we can all be a little more aware of what other may be going through! Especially when we keep in mind that we might not be able to see their pain.